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I smell like a moldy, old, NYC pretzel [Apr. 6th, 2004|10:53 pm]
[mood | sore]
[music |Duran Duran]

Another update for Dana...

I didn't go to sleep last night because I was having fun with my new computer. I was making all my pictures all cool and stuff. So at around 7ish I showered for a wonderful day of shopping with mommy and Chanelle in NYC. I cannot wait till I move there!! Anyway we started off there at 10:30, and I am so proud of my mom she didn't get lost once and it was her first time driving to the city. We went to two H&M stores so I bought a ton of stuff there, which is AWESOME! And then we went to a bunch of other weird stores. WE stopped at IKEA on the way home, complete waste of time. There was nothing there. So we went to Woodbridge, but due to the fact the gas station attends cannot speak English it took us an extra 45 minutes to get there. Fast forward to 9:20 the mall is about o close and Chanelle forgot where we were supposed to meet my mom and so we ran around the whole mall looking for her, plus she got the exact same bright yellow cons that I have, so we are not speaking. Other than that and that fact that I cannot move my right leg, my knee tightened up, the day was awesome.

Side note on H&M stores- I think you have to be gay to work there. Not only do the employee's appearances give away they like the same sex, I heard an employee talking to some random shopper in the dressing room, asking if he liked women or men, so on and so forth. By the time I reached the third H&M store I was shopping in Woodbridge and I had to put what I was going to buy on hold so I could go get money form my mom and this butch girl puts it on hold for me. Mom comes to H&M and wants to see the pant, a gay man lets me into the dressing room. I get to the counter to buy the pants and shirt and i look to my left and I see the Queer Eye for the Straight Guy, sound track for sale for $11.99. Now seeing that CD I think back and can positively count hearing the theme song 4 times while I was shopping at the three different H&M stores. Which really bothers me cause I wanted to work there.

As for Easter I get to be defeated by my stupid little sister in an annual egg hunt, money is the ultimate prize, but pain is Chanelle's ultimate prize because I hurt her when she wins.

In other news I get to go see H.I.M. with Joey, which is "uber" cool.
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Dana baby this one is for you. [Apr. 3rd, 2004|02:00 am]
[mood | curious]
[music |HIM in the Haggard Movie]

Let's see no one reads this silly little thingy anyway so I will tell my ONE fan what I did these past few "exciting" days.

TUESDAY: Went to daddy's house cause Tony (mom's man friend) and I got into a fight and he said some mean things, so I stayed home from school and went to padras.
WEDNESDAY: Back to Daddy's house to order my new super Dell computer, which I am typing on now.
THURSDAY: Brought a 1 (wo)man party to Dana, to cheer her up! I brought her CAKE, and blueberry muffins, and 1 chocolate muffin, and CRANBERRY JUICE (biggest bottle in Stop and Shop), and balloons which Dana will play with for the next year.
FRIDAY: Lindsey came over and I did some laundry (FUN) and then her sister picked us up and took us to a pocketbook party, we hung out with some cute old ladies(by the way Dana you know those super wonderful pink slippers that I complimented you on when I was at your house on Thursday an old lady had them on in YELLOW. I am jealous now, everyone has these magical little slippers.) Her sister kept trying to buy my a pink and blue purse, but I wouldn't let her. Then I came home to my new computer. : )

And so for the rest of this very nice break I will be sitting in my room rotting away like usual. Sept. for Tuesday I get to party it up in NYC.
Sorry Dana I don't think I have anything left to write for you to read.

Good-bye <3 Steph
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Dana asked for an update... [Mar. 21st, 2004|11:21 pm]
[mood | cold]
[music |Sounds of South Park]

-spell your first name backwards: einahpets
-the story behind your lj user name: Umm what story?
-are you a gay?: no
-where do you live?: NJ
-describe yourself in four words Hyper, nice, disorganized, and fun.

++++describe your...
-wallet: Pink with a little kitty on it
-hairbrush: I have short hair, I do not brush it
-jewelry worn daily: Black, hollow 4g earrings and then my dangly dice earrings
-pillow cover: 4 black pillow cases, 3 white, 3 poke-a-dotted black and white, and 1 furry black
-blanket: Which one? Jim Morrison in on my blanket!
-coffee cup: They are all Navy blue and UGLY
-sunglasses: $4 big bug eyed white ones
-underwear: Blue, lime green, and white flowers
-boots: I have hooker boots but I never wear hem
-handbag: Bright yellow and pink kitty on the front; the back says Big cats are dangerous but a little pussy won’t hurt ANYONE
-favorite shirt: Maybe my pickle party T or the Hendrix one
-cologne/perfume: Heavenly or anything vanilla or coconut
-cd in stereo right now: I have no CD in my CD player
-tattoos: not yet
-piercings: 2 in each ear, wanting an industrial
-what you are wearing: Quite a beautiful outfit men’s boxers w/ blue, navy, and yellow anchors that glow in the dark might I add, they are also see through so you can see the flowered undies too, my green pickle party T, and a blue sweatshirt w/ striped stocks.
-hair: Dyed black as of Friday but I have not showered in a while so its really messy
-makeup: whatever stayed on overnight
-in my mouth: my finger
-in my head: ummm that would involve thinking
-wishing: that school was over YEAH! no more east! and that I could drive
-after this: Who knows
-talking to: No one but I am watching South park
-eating: nothing
-fetishes: getting my head rubbed until i sleep, hand masage,
-if you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason?:
-what's next to you: Krispy Kreme doughnut hat, crutches, medication, and a phone.
-something you're looking forward to in the upcoming months: Going to New York and the summer
-some of your favourite movies: Nightmare before Christmas, Super Troopers, Thirteen, Haggard, many more
-something that you are deathly afraid of: Spiders!
-do you like candles?: yeah if they smell good
-do you like hot wax?: Depending on what for
-do you like incense?: YES!!
-do you like the taste of blood?: No, but if I’m bleeding a lot and there is nothing to wipe up my own blood I lick it, is that nasty?
-do you believe in love?: yes </3 -do you believe in soul mates?: yes -do you believe in love at first sight?: Yes </3 -do you believe in forgiveness?: yes -who is your worst enemy?: I don’t think I really have one -if you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be?: Just a dog cause my mom is gay and I’m never aloud to get one -what are five cities you wouldn't mind relocating to: New York or somewhere in California -what are some of your favourite pig out foods?: o man! I could make this list go on forever! -what's something you wish you could understand better?: Other people.
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Grounded and OH so bored [Feb. 21st, 2004|02:32 am]
[mood | sick]
[music |Major Tom - David Bowie]

I’ve got jungle fever, yes I do!

fizzle is...
Fizzle is yo babydaddy for shizzle!


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Right on?

sneakers
Sneakers- funny, laid-back, and goofy, you love to
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Yes, so tonight I have learnd that I will have a hlaf black child with Fizzle, I am a sneaker, I should commit suicide, that I am a WISE elf, and that Jesus lovesme cause I am not naked, isn't it all so wonderful. I really have NO life.
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(no subject) [Feb. 15th, 2004|08:44 pm]
[mood | chipper]
[music |Vendetta Red]

Have not updated in a while. East still sucks :( I definitely miss South a bunch. The arrangement between momma and daddy SUCK! I hate packing and having to go back and forth. Now the back and forth might be a lot longer. My dad is moving to California. I don't know I'm not so hot with the living with my mom idea cause she sucks. So I’m thinking that after i spend some time in California, if i like it I might move there permanently with my dad. Sadly I think that is what will happen. But I don't know if i can give up life in Toms River even though it does suck a lot. Plus, I don't know if I will fit in very well with the California kids so who knows. It's all up in the air for now. In other news I get to go on vacation to a whole bunch of islands. First cruise I’ve been on in a looonnnnggg time so it should be fun; but I don’t get to bring anyone so its kinda lame I have so spend the time with my sister. Hopefully there are some cool people on the cruise. Hm, what else. Ph yes I went to winter formal this weekend with Dana. She is the greatest date in the whole wide world. She made me a special wristlet in honor of Valentines Day it was red and white with these shiny little heart things on it. The dance was pretty cool Dana and I slow danced together and whispered sweet nothings in each other’s ears. It was so wonderful. The music was gay for the most part but Dana and I put on our "gangsta" faces and danced the night away. Ew some stupid janitor caught his mop on fire (how no one is sure) but yes the janitor made a fire and set the alarm off so we had to evacuate the building and stand outside till the fireman and police man came. Which was beat cause it was so cold outside. After the dance we partied back over to Morgan's house. i love Morgan's mom she is so cute. She labeled everything for us. Plus she buys the best food in the whole world. She is super wonderful! The next morning i went back to Dana's house and we were supposed to go to Kelly's house but her sister came home so we went to the mall and Pat, Sal, Munchie, and Kevin were there. So was my weirdo sister not that that makes a difference. Yeah so it was stupid we sat on the chairs and did nothing, but I did see a lot of people there. Hm, Paul got Dana flowers for Valentines Day; they were really pretty. I hung out with Chris<3 for Valentines day. Yeah we watched an awesome movie. Not commenting on the other cause the lady in it had 3 nipples, which was so nasty. Then I went back to my dad's house and I was forced to turn Haggard off and go to bed, which sucked so bad cause it was so early. I don't go to bed till like 3 or something and they made me sleep at 12:30. I pretty much just sat there and listened to the clock tick. I never realized that I brought my CD player for 1996 so I never got to listen to music just the clocks. That was pretty much it. Pretty boring life but O well. Oh yes if anyone finds out the date to the 80's dance let me know. And on more thing I'm cutting my hair this Wednesday. Pictures of the Dance and my Hair cut will be posted soon. Tell me what you think.
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(no subject) [Feb. 2nd, 2004|10:06 pm]
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Wow first normal entry in a while [Jan. 25th, 2004|12:36 am]
[mood | drained]
[music |smells like teen spirit (have not heard that one in a while)]

So, I went to New Hope this weekend. My sister and I shared a room, the hotel was like real old and had creepy pictures all around that the eyes looked like they followed you everywhere you go. Tony yelled at me long story. I don't know how this whole stepfather deal is going to workout. Plus, I keep getting yelled at for keeping my door shut...gee I’m sorry I don't want the smell of cigarette smoke coming into my room and making my clothes smell. East well that is a different story, I did meet a few new cool people but all in all east is pretty stupid. My teachers are good sep. for Dr. O he is from South Africa and can barely speak English. Yeah so his class is pretty funny. Anyway back to the whole New Hope deal it was freezing and we walked around all day. It sucked cause my mom told me there was going o be a ton of consignment shops and I got all happy but there was only one and it was only like half consignment shop. Nonetheless it was a very very awesome store I got some cool stockings there. Then we went into some store called Turn Me Loose that was the only other cool store. I purchased the best thing I think I have ever bought in my entire life there; it is a Jim Morrison blanket! That pretty much made my day. Now I can say I get to sleep with Jim lol. In other news I got my dress for formal so I can look super sexy with Dana. I don't think I have much more to say. So, good-bye.
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1 and a half days [Jan. 6th, 2004|10:09 pm]
[mood | gloomy]
[music |broke : modest mouse]

Today I went home on Joey’s bus then to Joey's house. Today was awesome, very much so. We played Monopoly cause we are both losers who can never get anyone to play with us. I also finished some missions on GTA3 for him. I <3 that game so much. I was kind of disappointed though I could not find the man that carries around porn mags in his hand. Oh well. Yeah so what else did we do? Oh yes we walked to the store so I could buy some new black polish cause mine is stupid and does not like to stay on my fingers. It was so cold though. I thought I was going to die. I concurred in not having more then 4 or 5 pictures taken of me. I don't like pictures of me; they come out bad all the time. I really needed to get out of my house and stop thinking for the day. Thanks for letting me hang out at your house.

-Justin I must see the black hair. I'm sure it looks good!
-James feel better. I hope you and your friends are all right. No more car accidents you hear!

Because I do not have my computer in my room and my sister is moving her computer tomorrow. This is my final good-bye to from 8 Fairway Drive. Good-bye to everyone at South I will miss you all very much. You have helped me through a lot and I can never forget you guys. Yes I am still going to be living in Toms River, its not like it is another state. Many people think that this is stupid for the way I am acting. But for those who don't know my parents are getting divorced and I am moving out of the house I have lived in my enter life so this is a huge deal for me. Plus I have to start all over at East. So once again to everyone at South good-bye. Keep South the same never let it change. I like how no one judges anyone by what thy look like there.

No updates till Friday or Saturday.

Good-bye. (As the tears fall on the keyboard)
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Bored as you can see [Jan. 3rd, 2004|01:07 am]
[mood | scared]
[music |The cure]

--You--
Name: Steph(f)anie Beardsley
Nicknames: Noodle-bowl and everyone’s favorite sausage links
birthday: September 4
Hobbies: Painting my nails. My computer. Music Listening. My hair. Taking pictures.
Screen Name: crazzzyawesome26
Eye color: they change from blue to green and sometimes gray
Hair color: light brownish. NO I am not a blonde to all who think that. I was born with black hair
Who do you love/like: I LOVE DANA! I like so many boys though.

--Favorite--
Number: 13
Color(s): black. pink. green. yellow. sometimes blue.
Place: any mall or my room.
State: New York
Country: Great Britain
Book: If I should die before I wake. That is the best book in the world
Game: Old-school classroom games like 7-up and 4 CORNERS!
Drug: all of them. Though I have not tried most.
Condom: yeah I would not know that.
Movie: ferris bueller or the doors DVDs
Store: I shop online
Person(s): Kier. Dana. Shannon. Leah. JOEY. JOEY is the best. I love him so much.
CD: Coheed and Cambria – IN KEEPING SECRETS OF SILENT EARTH: 3
Band/Singer: Way to many bands. But singer Jim Morrison
Internet activity: porn, like the rest of the world. hah
Games: didn't we answer that

---Do You---
Cut yourself: Nope
Lick yourself: All the time.
Whine a lot: yes
Yell a lot: yes...
Hate a lot of people: Only a few.
Have too many friends: aww thats not possible!
Want to die: I wouldn’t mind it. Life sucks right now.
Believe in life after death: as in heaven and hell? yeah I guess, sure
Go to church: I used to go. havn’t in a while
Love school: Maybe one or two days outa the whole year.
Have a bf/gf: no. no because I am stupid.
Have sex: Have not had the pleasure.
Smoke: cigarettes are the most disgusting things ever, sorry Joey.
Do drugs: once in a while.
Wear dark colors: No KYLE I am not gothic, but I do like black. It is slimming.
Try to be different: I am myself
Have any peircings: yessum two hole is the log 6g in the bottom. Soon to come and Industrial. YAYY!
Break bones a lot: no, i only broke my pinky finger once.
Watch porn: Porn is GOD!
Dye your hair: Dana and I tried to dye it Pink though it did not work.
shave strange places: what exactly are strange places?

---Have you ever----
Kissed someone: si
Had sex: no
Frenched someone: maybe? Hey why not.
Killed someone: no. Though I would very much like to.
Been raped: Dana sexual abuses me.
Shopped for condoms: cant say I have.
Smoked: not cigarettes.
Gotten Drunk: No beer and it is all good.
Worn rainbow: I did have hot little rainbow shorts.
Talked on the phone for over 3 hours: I talked to Kyle till 6 in the morning from like 8 that night.
Left the country: yes, two times.
Had a party with over 30 people: Why my family birthday parties of course.
Taken nude pictures: not at all. righhhtt…
Taped yourself having sex: hahaha. that's more of a guy thing to do, no?
Stolen something: I am not coordinated enough to steal anything.
Broken a bone: just my pinky finger. Didn’t I answer that already?
Ran away from home: I was real mad at my dad and I ran away. To trusty Shannon’s house.
Burned yourself: Making pancakes. straightening my hair. ironing my clothes. Dropped a large pot of boiling water. Once lighting a lighter hence I do not light them anymore.
Caught something on fire: A tiny part of my kitchen, I left a bag of pop corn in the microwave for to looonnnnnngggg. (Try 50 minutes) though it did not take that long to catch fire.
Cheated on someone: yes. Bad me. I’ll never do it again, cause I know how it feels.
Wanted to cheat on someone: sorta
Fell in love online: No but I’ve met a lot of cool people (they might be child molesters though) O well they seemed cool.
Asked someone out: no well maybe sorta kinda.
Been dumped: yes.
Dumped someone: yeah
Had a dream then the next day it happens: Yes. Man it is the weirdest thing in the world!

Called a porn hotline: I called the red hair one cause someone told me to. we thought it was funny.

Pick One:
Cat/Dog: Dog or maybe a cat with a disease that made it say really small then they are kinda cute.
Hot/Cold: cold.
Far/Near: depends on what it is… I guess near.
Water/Land: Land.
Kiss/Sex: With Jim or Tom (haha Leah). I’d take either or!
Online/Phone: online.
Beer/Book: I don't like beer and I only like one book.
Novel/Poetry: both could work.
Music/Silence: music

--Dream Mate--
Short/Long Hair: longer
Tall/Short: taller than me
Preppy/Dorky/Druggie: I like dorky kids.
Freckles/No Freckles: freckles are cute. But it doesn't matter
Hair Color: I like darker brown . Black is Ok too.
Hat/No hat: a hat might work.
Fat/Thin: Doesn’t bother me. But not like at 500 pound guy. That’s just a little to much for me.
Makeup/No Makeup: I don’t like make-up on my guys. Though it does not scare me as badly as I\t does Kier. TE HE
Dressy/Casual: casual
Holding hands/Holding 'other body parts': Holding hands rocks.


~LAST PERSON~
You Touched: My sister.
You Talked to: Dana and Mrs. Matrano
You Hugged:Mrs. Matrano She hugged me as a good-bye/good luck. I LOVE MRS> MATRANO!
You Instant messaged: The coolest kid out there JOEY!
You Yelled At: My mom. I yell at her a lot.
Who Broke Your Heart: Ehh… I’m not sure.


~ARE YOU~
Understanding: yeah
Open-minded? I try to be
Arrogant: no. I don't think..
Insecure: very.
Interesting: I don’t think so
Hungry: I’m happy with the water I am drinking.
Smart: Not really. I know a lot of useless information though
Moody: yeah very.
Childish: I think I will always be a kid at heart.
Independent: Yeah, I think so. But I like knowing I have someone there to help me out.
Hard working: I can if I want to be
Organized: I am the most Unorganized person (that is next to Dana) But I am being force to be neat at my new house.
Healthy: No but I try to be.
Emotionally Stable: I think I am for the most part. Besides for this point in my life I’m not really.
Shy: It depends if I feel inferior to the person.
Difficult: Yeah I think I am. I wish I wasn’t though
Attractive: No, I don’t think I am.
Bored Easily: yes very.
Messy: there is crap all over my room. My top shelf hols dots from last night and my lunch from today.
Thirsty: Nope, I have my trusty water next to me.
Responsible: I can be.
Obsessed: very much so. Is that a bad thing?
Angry: I am angry at almost everything right now.
Sad: ditto
Happy: not usually.
Trusting: I think so, you tell me.
Ill: nah just a headache here and there.
Talkative: I love to talk. I talk to everything and anything.
Legal: 15 nope.
Original: as in what sense??
Ignored: By my mom yes. She doesn’t listen to me.
Reliable: Ummm I guess.
Self-disciplined: hahaha no or I wouldn't do half the stuff I find fun
Sleepy: I enjoy sleeping very much

~YOU WANT TO~
Kill: The number is quite high
Slap: Same as on top
Get really Wasted With: whoever wants to get wasted with me
Tickle: the pizza man (I liked Kier’s answer)
Look Like: No one. Not even myself.
Be Like: No one.
Talk to: your penis.
Talk To Online: Joey. I like talking to him a lot. And anyone else who cares enough to IM me.

I am sorry I lied on this little survey thing. But only on one question. And Joey you know what it is.
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I've been lost for the past few days. [Jan. 2nd, 2004|03:03 pm]
[mood | energetic]
[music |Rilo Kiley]

Wow there is only 6 days left for me at my beloved house. I will miss thee. I have found out that my mother did not sign me up for east the last Friday we had school. Meaning that I get to go back to South for the next 3 or 4 days after break. Which is good but it also means I have to re-say good-bye to everyone again, and the crying I really do not need to do that again. Yeah and the hatred I have towards the fact that I cannot paint my room the colors I want cause it won’t go along with the “theme” of the house. Plus I am not a loud to hang posters in my new room. So this is good-by to my beloved Ramones poster you will be missed a great deal.

Ah yes shall I mention the fact that I am a dirty black clothes-wearing girl. According to foxyfox I am dirty for what I wear. And in all honesty I like color very much. I do wear black but not every thing is black every single day of my life. How would you know anyway foxyfox because you saw me for one day in the mall and that is after not seeing me sense the middle of the summer when I was wearing a bathing suit. I’ve got news for you it is just clothes. Yes, you may not like my hair cut but get over it. If it really pains you to look at me that much then just don’t. I prefer not to be looked at anyway and that is by anyone. I don’t see how you can call me dirty and that shit but then you can say I am hiding all my beauty. Where do you get off calling me beautiful? You know in reality I do get called ugly or fat or whatever and if you are reading this you know who you are if you’ve called me that. Yes, and now I can see that all the people I have been with before the summer of last year didn’t care about me or what I thought or anything like that because now those people are say I am ugly or what not but yet they were old b.f. of mine. All that says it that you are an egotistical pig that didn’t give two shits about who I am. So thank you for allowing me too realize that. I also like it better not getting 30-year-old child molesters on the boardwalk asking me for my number. I am hardly noticed which is ten times better then ever before. I now know that when I meet a guy it is not cause I have pretty long hair or big boobs (which are not been that big to begin with) its because they like me as a person. Oh and foxyfox after you knowing everything I’ve been through you of all people I would expect to be happy for me and not to criticize every move I make.

Ok well I am done.
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